From the barn to the Grotto, from the church to the manger!!!

              It ends as it began, the cycle of life.  It began with Adam & Eve, their graces, their big disgrace, being thrown out of the Garden of Eden, and then Cain & Abel are yet another chapter.  But, that sex thing from the very beginning is confusing.  As I read it, it was Adam and Eve having their minds opened AND BEING ASHAMED OF THEIR NUDITY THAT WAS THE SIN!!!  THEY WERE WALKING AROUND NAKED THE WHOLE TIME, BEFORE THEY SINNED!!!!  But, the metaphor in the book of Genesis that is so misunderstood is that the 'snake' charmed first Eve, then Adam, to sin against God.  It says nothing about sexual misconduct!!!!

 

                                      "Be fruitful and multiply!!!"

                  How tragic that something as perfect as life could be interrupted by the actions of a few Satanic spirits, spirits of selfishness ... ruining the interpretation of sex for all time for some people.  I am not cold to the fact that from St. Joan of Arc to St. Dymphna people, women in particular, have died …. that is have been killed for the sexual pleasure of men.  Doesn’t seem like I know, huh?  What is also forgotten is that Mary, Jesus' mother, had her baby while Elizabeth her cousin was made pregnant in her old age, too.  Then what has happened to make people so ANTI-HETEROSEXUAL lately.  WHAT FACTOR?  The confounding factor that I’m always going to bring up regarding sexuality is … racism!  I did not know what racism actually was until spending time with a few very ignorant people who just wouldn’t let up.  The first thing they said to me was,"You look like the savages my great great grandparents used to see in the jungle: all eyes and teeth in the darkness!"  What’s worse is that the reason they would not let up is because I just kept on being a nigger to them.  What the hell is being a nigger? Based on skin color???? What are they talking to?  

              What did they mean by ‘black nigger sex’ in particular, "how ya’ll do it!"  The feelings focused upon me were so disgusting that even the most innocent people, who were indeed trying not to be racist, were still the most alienating!  But, the one word that I now know covers racist attitudes is -- SICK!  When a value system begins and ends and is sustained by attitudes towards not only skin color but the creature that they associate with it, you’d better ask just what the heck they are talking about.  Apparently, the darker your skin the more of a nigger you are, or so the rules state.  Yet, no one asks a single dermatologist to substantiate what the actual function of skin color is regarding behavior.  Where is this correlation?  And, the biggest elephant in the room is the collective mechanism of capturing, torturing, and identity twisting the victim that literally rips a person from their ancestral home and concentrates solely and entirely on the subjective interpretation of skin color.  It's a nigger factory, cranking out target behaviors and colorizing them!!!  In effect, the brainwashing targets the human being to be made over into a specific skin colored creature.

                Now, back to sex.  The word nigger has for the past few decades come to mean exclusively the DARK SKINNED MALE!!!  We dark skinned males have been isolated as a specific species.  But, in their speeches about EXCUSES, they conveniently leave out that nifty mechanism of social betrayal and rejection.  In short, the European Colony systems were none other than a nigger factory, the males of which were to be breeders, or castrated to stop them from doing so.  The man inside, the human male, has been forgotten within the social mythologies made up of half truths and whole lies.  The half truths involve those set ups that only give one side of the story (as in Michael Brown and Trayvon Martin), the side justifying the lynchings/murders.  The side of the story having to do with the (police) set up was always forgotten, until ‘To Kill a Mockingbird’ was written.  Then, we got to see that Robert Duvall character (Boo Radley) was actually the killer, even though they went on an presumably killed the Brock Peters character (Tim Robinson)  anyway.  Still, it was the first step in confronting racist lies.

           So, we’ve not come so far after all.  Where sex is concerned there are still the squeamish and queezy when it comes to dark skinned men.  What’s worse is finally teaching young men of dark skin color identities outside of the racist description is next to impossible now.  Why? Well for example, when I started to wake up as an African American male in my own house it was met by resistance from my own parents (and others) who were still clinging to segregation rules.  “What’s wrong with being called a nigger, it’s the word WE grew up with  …  WHY NOT YA'LL ...” is what I heard.  I just could not believe my ears.  And similar such statements continued until I could not take it anymore and moved into the family garage, rats, squirrels, flies, wasps, mosquitos … peace!  This was LONG before I was a teacher, and before graduate school.  It was during my undergraduate years that I got lost and I could not at the time ascertain the simple reason why.  It was this: I was finally at my parents Xavier University, not my own, and it was to be THEIR second chance at college.  Without getting too deeply into this, America was undergoing its REBIRTHING stage regarding certain social segments in the 80's and 90's. Remember the crime drama shows that depicted that mess.  Well, while it was being shown on television, I was actually experiencing it.

           Again, back to the sex … or should I say gender.  The Prince Boy George Michael Jackson ‘Wham!’ Culture Club sequenced glove brigade was making strides (in the 80's and 90's) with their Crying Game move.  Why not (and it took me a long time to figure this out),-- why not take the emasculation of a generation literally.  It was the perfect solution for racist pedophiles to MANDATE the feminine behavior on .. well, all of us!!!  The other half was accomplished by Oprah, Maya Angelou, Ellen, Will and Grace, and other entities opening the door for gay and female victim rights.  I have no problem with this phenomenon.  The PROBLEM IS MANDATING, BY SKIN COLOR -- what I call shooting in the dark.  You don’t know me, but I’m very brown skinned (relatively speaking all depending on how long I spend in the sun, some parts are darker than others).  So, you use a combination of language place holders and mythology to assign me an identity, including sexually.  But, I’m going to introduce a catastrophic thought into your mind: Neither I nor anyone will be the nigger you expect us to be.  There is no race genetics by skin color or any other mechanism.  There are no race hormones responsible for special intelligence or ignorance.  I haven’t the foggiest clue as to why Darla couldn’t kiss Buckwheat, or Stymie for that matter, or where the heck the ‘Black’ Darla was all that time.  (Don’t get me started on the substitution job that Speed Racer did with Chim Chim as sidekick and Scooby Do as Shaggy’s sidekick … oh come on am I reaching here. You tell me!)

             In all truth, Heterosexuality itself is itself under fire.  According to some people of the next generation it is allegedly over.  Well, there goes procreation, and certainly for ‘niggers’, by skin color remember.  Gosh help you if you’re caught around certain people wanting, or doing, certain things with other skin colored people.  Today I read a comment online by some ignorant (although probably not evil) guy who asked why blacks in New Orleans wore cowboy hats.  When I grew up in my neighborhood we wore whatever we wanted.  We skateboarded, had swimming pools in our backyards, had gardens, dated each other, those who had and could afford muscle cars worked freely on them, lifted weights in the backyard, and played instruments (guitars, basses, horns, drums, keyboards, etc.) in the local school and garage bands. 

               When, the 80’s happened casual race mixing just sorta socially happened.  By the end of the 80’s there was one big hoppin’ U2, Michael Jackson, Humpty Dancin’ block party.  Then, gangsta rap moved in, there went the neighborhood (Steady Mobbin-Ice Cube), but no harm done, eh?  By the mid 1990’s everything was ruined by trash tv and news stories and their perspectives of new social victims sick of crime who needed a target image.  Then Rodney King and OJ happened which was hell on earth to me from that point on.  I was in graduate school for goodness sake.  But, even in Manhattan, Kansas there were crimes, banks robbed in town. Guess who's image they tried to pin that on?

           From that point on Jim Crow had not-so-secretly begun to gain a foothold again.  Skin color racism was back.  David Duke ran for and won elected offices in Louisiana, and if not for Edwin Ewards would have been governer.  We had it right America: freedom for all and Jesse Jackson should have been president right after Clinton.   But, bloodthirsty vengeance for the OJ verdict killed civil rights for a long time.  We were making strides bigger than Nothing But Cosby (NBC), we had the most positive African American characters on TV in the history of media.  Did we mess it up?  All too many would say yes, that we’d gained too much and gone too far.  They would take the actions of our mentally and criminally ill and colorize them to fit their racist theories.

             But, here’s my official and final answer: THERE’S NO SUCH THING AS A NIGGER!!!  All racism is mythology created to used skin color as its most recent sifting mechanism.  Ooops, one has to count what Hitler tried to do to the Jews.  But, wait! Didn’t we free the world and defeat Hitler???   Then, why are we still fighting for our dignity to this very day???  I am a brown skinned man and I refuse to be characterized by my (present) skin color, sexually in particular!!!  I know that the media popularizes a specific image of victimizer as the boogyman in the night.  However, do you really believe that a person is more evil the darker their skin color is? Or, is it that so many doors close in the faces of a particular skin color of people so as to CREATE the race that the nigger factory cranks out.  Amen. Anon.